I know I’ve been changed….

August 30, 2006 at 12:00 am (General stuff)

I’ve been thinking a lot about the internet lately. Ever since I’ve recieved my first computer, I’ve been on the internet. I used to frequent chat rooms and games, now I never do (the chats not the games. Not even internet forums which I’ve frequent and blogs I’ve read seem to hold my attention…

Maybe the internet has outgrown me, or maybe I’ve outgrown it somewhat. When I was younger, it was an outlet, an escape from the bad situations I was going through, a place that I could find community, a sympathetic ear and a place where I belong…Now i’m older and a bit wiser, I’ve had to move away from my family and support system, I had to learn to live on my own, I’ve loved and had my heart broken, I escaped an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship. Good things have happened because of the internet (Raven and Kiro, which i’ll talk about later.) But, I don’t need it as much as I used to. Life has happened as it always has and will, and maybe the veil and allure has been lost. Or maybe, my life has truely gone offline. The internet is a tool, that can be used for good or used destructively. But, its not the only driving force in my life anymore. Maybe it means that for the first time in a long time, i’ll be unpluged…..


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Katrina, the failure played out in stereo…..

August 28, 2006 at 11:36 pm (General stuff, Poli-ticking, Race)


 This is my post for Shakephere’s Sister’s Blog Swarm. I wish I had the eloquence to write something profound or resonating like the other bloggers. All I can give are my thoughts and heart.

Today, is August 28th, for some it signals the beginning of the long work week, for others like me, it signals the first day of classes. This post is not about any of these things I’m afraid. This is about the one year anniversary of act of nature that was Hurricane Katrina and the acts (or lack thereof) of men that was the destruction of New Orleans. The president would rather ignore this marking, have us focus on the 5th year anniversary of 9/11 only. He would rather we be more concerned about who’s the next American Idol or what Paris Hilton is wearing, rather than people remembering the incompetence, the lack of planning and intelligence and the overall apathy that led to the many casualties..why do I call the deaths both immediate and overtime caused by Katrina casualties, because the citizens of the Gulf Coast were casualties in the war on class, sacrifices to the altar of hate, bigotry, greed, hypocrisy, incompetence and irresponsibility….

 In order to insure the status quo, some must enjoy the spoils,while others suffer. The infrastructure of New Orleans was clear cut proof of that. The success of The Bush administration’s Social Darwinism led to the failure and abandonment of so many. And why? Wrong color? Wrong color of money? Not a part of the base? What ever happened to “Do to the least of my brethren, you do to me?” I know in this day and age little things like logic no longer apply, I guess morals don’t either….

One year has passed and yet progress is still slow, money and housing still hasn’t come to the survivors, families have been scattered to the winds. Most of our citizens have lost faith that we are ready for any disaster that may happen be it natural or man made… The blood stains that came from waters of New Orleans will never come clean from this nation’s hands, as long as we remain hate-filled and apathetic towards our brothers and sisters, our fellow citizens, no matter what race, gender, religion, sexuality, age or class that they are.  I want to believe that this country has learned its lessons: that it won’t turn a blind eye anymore to the suffering of its people. But, whenever I remember Katrina, I remember the sadness I felt for the Gulf Coast, and I remember the rage at the government that left it to die…

We cannot come complacent and forget, we cannot doubt it happened and we can no longer not hold our leaders accountable. Rarely forgive and never forget…..

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Hello world!

August 28, 2006 at 9:09 pm (General stuff)

So, these are these newfangled word press blogs I’ve heard so much about, spiffy! And i’m not even being sarcastic, I like it. I will probably write more on this thing as I can think of things, because one, I’m a college student, and two, I have bouts of horrible laziness….

 The first day of classes went as well as I could expect….minus the server dying when everyone needed to double check their class schedule. My weekend went well. I moved back on Thursday, went grocery shopping on Friday with Dan. On Saturday, went to lunch and a picnic, got free ice cream, went to my friend Marquita’s new apartment and managed to make it home safe even though she was determined to get me wasted. Sunday was quiet, but I got to see Over the Hedge. I’ve run into so many friends and acquaintances over the past couple of days, I hope everyone is doing fine. The school has changed a bit, the food may be actually editable since there is a new head chef turning the college cuisine (and I do use the term loosely) on its ear and backside. I feel odd it being my last semester here. It feels familiar and yet new like when I first got here 3 years ago….I feel that this semester will go well and I’m determined to not be afraid that this signals the end of one chapter of my life and the beginning of another, I will also try hard not to fuck things up so I can graduate the hell out of here! Teehee….

So here’s my first post, I only hope I didn’t bore you all too much…

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